It’s been a weird, but helpful season for me. Two months before I got married, I was laid-off from my job due to Covid-19. I was really upset because not only did I loved my job, but I would be entering our marriage unemployed. Luckily the months following the lay-off were extremely busy – planning a wedding, moving, home renovations, actual wedding, honeymoon, and holidays.
But then came January 2, 2021 and everything was over. My to-do list dwindled, my errands became one errand (weekly grocery shopping), and sinking thoughts of “What do I do today?” filled my mind daily.
I became a full-time housewife, which for many women, that’s a dream! And there is absolutely nothing wrong with that, but for me, I have always loved being out in the community and working with people. Plus I assumed I’d be a stay-at-home mom for a while once we started having kids, but staying home now?
As I began to pray more fervently and share my thoughts with my husband and gal pals, I kept thinking about a few verses:
Matthew 25:23 – His master said to him, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant. You have been faithful over a little; I will set you over much. Enter into the joy of your master.’
Luke 16:10 – “One who is faithful in a very little is also faithful in much, and one who is dishonest in a very little is also dishonest in much.”
Proverbs 28:25 – The greedy stir up conflict, but those who trust in the Lord will prosper.
FAITHFUL OVER LITTLE. The conviction set in. Am I okay with what God has given me today – even if it’s what appears to be “little” to me? Am I okay with spending my day on making my husband’s meals, cleaning our house, washing clothes, etc.? It is the complete opposite of the lifestyle I am used to. I mean I cooked and cleaned for myself, but that was in between my “real work.” Spending all of my time in that regard was vastly different than I ever imagined before children.
BUT, do I trust that the Lord knows what’s best for me? The common theme in the verses above is not the work itself, but the heart of the matter. Am I being faithful in the little and remembering that whatever I do “in word or deed, do everything in the name of the Lord Jesus, givings thanks to God the Father through him”..?
Jesus is always more concerned with our heart rather than the work. We learned that all throughout the Gospels as He ministered about the Kingdom of Heaven and called out their Pharisees for being “white-washed tombs” (Matthew 23:27-28).
I decided to start ministering to women online. I figured since I am home caring for my husband and looking for a job, I could also devote time to pursuing my dream of starting a ministry. And well, I don’t know if you know anything about producing and growing online content, but it is HARD and EXHAUSTING!!! I watched YouTube videos and read articles about “growing your platform” and I just wanted to curl up into a hole.
Friends, there are SO MANY tricks and techniques and you basically have to live online. I quickly realized, I am not made for dedicating my life to growing an online ministry and that it would have to be a miracle from God to have a large following online to minister to. And then I thought, “Why do I need a large following?” Yes, more followers, would mean more people hearing the truths of the Gospel, but what about being faithful over little?
Culture emphasized more, more, more. But as Christians, we are set apart. We are not like the culture and God often does incredible things in the little. Look at Christianity. It started with Jesus teaching 12 below-average guys. And yet, here we are 2,000 years later, still reading about those little, but significant lives that God used to bring the Gospel to the world. Do you know what we often don’t read about? The little everyday teachers, mentors, moms, dads, siblings that live a life unto the Lord and teach His truths to others. Most are often not written about or publicly recognized, but their faithfulness over little will be rewarded with the much of Heaven. So whether three women or 30,000 women, I know the Lord would want me to be faithful with whomever He sends and trust Him with that.
AND THEN LAST WEEK I RECEIVED A JOB OFFER. It is for a ministry doing incredible, Kingdom work! But then they showed me the salary – significantly lower than what I am used to getting paid. After a day of contemplation with God and a few friends, those three beautiful, yet convicting words came to mind – faithful over little. Could our family survive with this salary and my husbands? Yes. Would we be able to save as much? Probably not. Would I have stricter boundaries around my online purchases, LOL? Yes. (sorry Amazon) But again, this was the Lord’s invitation to be faithful with what He has given.
“Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above” (James 1:17). And what a good gift it would be to work at advancing His Kingdom, while being given means to live. For the believer, there is no good thing that He withholds (Psalm 84:11). Being a housewife, having a small ministry following, and a work-from-home job with a lower salary are the good things that He has for my life right now – regardless of my feelings or my thoughts or my perspective. He is ALWAYS right. He is ALWAYS faithful. And He is ALWAYS loving. And because I know His character and what He’s sacrificially already done for me on the cross 2,000 years ago, I can trust Him in the little and in the big. He is faithful because I’m often not. May God be the glory. Amen.